Yesterday I joined several seasoned sistah friends to provide comfort & healing for one who had just cleaned her home of a relationship. As the elders say - when you do good for others you get good in return. One of the sistahs READ me & I know that I needed to hear it. Some of you may be surprised to learn that my swagga has been teetering on stagga. But, I am thankful for new beginnings and opportunities to reclaim my swagga!
When I moved to NYC in 2001 The Creator had this amazing Sistah take me in until I could find my own place. She gently shared that I was hiding - although she used different terminology. Three years ago I talked to this Brother Andrew Morrison at my church and he also gently shared his observation that I seemed to be hiding even though I am out in plain sight. In hindsight, Brother R. Fitzgerald said similar regarding why I'm a challenge for brothers - but I wasn't getting it. Well, yesterday the sistah who read me stated exactly how she observed me hiding out in the open - cuz I haven't been hearing the gentle nudgings of those before her. She stated: 1) that she could tell I had been hurt in past relationships and that it's time to let that go. 2) Despite my training that good sistahs "don't" - it's okay to get to know more than one man at a time (just play safe!;-). And 3) She gave me specific actions for coming out of hiding! Then today I stop by Clnmike's blog and he's posted a Deal Breaker list that speaks loud & clear!
Ok, Creator - I GET it! I need to step out on faith in a different way than I have been. All of my cocky rantings have not been reflected in my actions toward myself. So, my mantra (& my actions) for 2009: Time to Step INTO the light that is MINE (no more shadow boxing)!!
I love the words to this song that reiterate my actions for 2009:
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