Reconciliation: Life's Lessons in Action

This past 4th of July I am proud to share that I watched myself grow leaps & bounds! The last Brother I was involved with showed up at a cook out I was attending after I called to wish him a happy 4th. We haven't seen each other in a few months. I was really happy to see him - so much that it surprised me! We were leaving the venue soon after he showed up, as things were winding down and we were moving onto the next spot. He said he'd meet us there and I smiled inside and out. He was slow getting to the next venue and again we were about to leave as he arrived to go get a good spot to see the fireworks. I asked him to join us. Initially, he said no, because he doesn't like crowds and the fireworks aren't that big a deal to him. But, I am like a kid when it comes to fireworks. I asked him to join us a second time and added: Please;-). He complied. Again, I smiled inside and out. We walked hand in hand in the drizzle then shared an umbrella when it came down a bit harder. I was saddened by the fact that the couple with us had a conflict - but I was having a real easy, cozy time with Him, so it made my night a GREAT 4th of '08! He & I 1st hooked up a year ago at that same cook out where our night started. I smiled when he remembered that. Not sure where this'll go from here - but, I'm proud that we reconciled and are at peace again.

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Filling Empty Spaces

Anyone who thinks that an empty space holds no significance, hasn't really had to deal with an empty space. To most people, an empty space is nothing more than an area of air with no solid matter contained within. In some cases, that might just be the case. Then there are the other cases. In cases like mine, an empty space is so much more than just air. Depending on the location of the empty space, it can become the most significant thing in your life.

I have had an empty space in my life since day one, and that empty space has impacted me for the last thirty years. That empty space used to cause me anger, pain, a lot of tears and disappointment. There were also moments of false hope, emotional distress and jealousy (I could post on each one of those emotions individually in regards to how they relate to empty spaces, but I digress for now). Now that I'm older, I see that that empty space has also made me headstrong, compassionate, and independent, among other things. That empty space caused women to do things that weren't expected to do and in 1990 turn a 12 year old boy into a man in about as long as it took him to get home from school one day (another story for another day. Let's just say Child Services wouldn't be happy).

If you haven't figured it out by now, the empty space I'm referring to is the space on my birth certificate where it says father's name. It's blank, but I never used that as a crutch or an excuse. My mother worked two jobs to make sure that I didn't want for anything growing up. She didn't slack off and she didn't allow me to slack off either. I learned not to let obstacles get in your way and if I put my mind to it, nothing can stop me from getting to where I want to be. I've learned many other lessons from my mother and because of the circumstances I grew up under. Seeing how other people say I turned out, I don't think I would change a thing if I could do it again (except, maybe the part where my mother worked two jobs). Over the last thirty years, I have realized that any man with a penis can have a child. They also say that it takes a real man to be a father. The way I see it, a real woman can be a father too if she's put in that position. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!

Love of My Life

This is a prom pic of my daughter. She is my beautiful one. God has been so good to me. I had some hard times raising this girl. My love for her surpassed the pain.

The Bravest Daddy's Girl in BlogLand!

(Click image of Sistah PTB & her Daddy to get to her blog)

If U haven't met my inspiration: Princess TinyButt you've been missing out! She's a fellow Daddy's Girl who gave birth to another beautiful Li'l Daddy's Girl! So, Don't delay: go meet her today!

Luv List: 1000 things I'm Thankful I've experienced

Each Thursday for a year I will post twenty things I am thankful I've experienced over at my "home" spot and I'll cross blog here sometimes, too;-). Here's the third list (with links to the first two):

Cap's Thankful Thursdays!


Enjoy!