In the midst of so much loss this year - The Creator reminds us that Life GOES ON! I want to Honor a Blog-Sistah of ours who gave birth 2 a beautiful baby boy!
Sharon - U r my S-hero & a true Queen. U give us sistahs over 35 such inspiration!
Welcome to the World, Dear BabyBoy!
Born 9/28/09, weight: 7lbs 13 ounces, length: 21 1/4 inches. Mom and son are both spectacular!!!
*photo lifted from Sharon's facebook page, I hope that's alright:-). Just wanted to share him & your amazing-ness with the world! Click her name & Baby's photo to get to her blog!
This year, 2009 has been filled with a great DEAL of loss: quite a few celebrities & public figures, some family members & blog/internet family. I tend to lead a solitary existence - sometimes I choose this isolation because I think it'll make it easier because I won't experience the pain of losing loved ones if I don't "have" loved ones. I'm discovering that even choosing to live life behind the electronic curtain does not protect the heart. When Nikki passed & I discovered I was actually disturbed by it I became frightened at the prospect of losing Blog/Internet "family" who I have actually developed a real life relationship with and truly grown close to.
At the same time, being the conundrum that I am, I love people and am quite a social being. I've finally re-opened my heart to Love on a variety of levels: self-love, friendships, romance, even reaffirming family connections. I'm learning that it's the LOSS of Love that hurts - not the actual LOVING of others. Life without Love - as the "cliche" goes: really is not worth living.
Reflections are a funny thing... I had no idea this post would lead me to the renewal of Love. But, I guess there is No Loss if there is No Love. Hmm, that's deep. I need to go reflect on that a bit more. Peace, Blessings & MUCH Luv 2 U!
Thanx DC for the memorial service information. If you are a blogger in the ATL area - please attend, if possible:
Nikki Harris Memorial Service. Gregory B. Levett & Sons 4347 Flat Shoals Parkway Decatur, GA 30034 404-241-5656 12:30 p.m. to 2:00 p.m. Saturday, September 5, 2009
I'm really feeling some kind of way about the loss of this blog-sistah. I never met her & I didn't always like her raw writings, but she made me FEEL something EVERY TIME I read her work and for that I'm thankful. Nikki is the first member of my extended blog-family that I have lost. She seemed too young & too vibrant to be gone already. Of course, I'm not The Creator & have no "say" in the time that anyone spends on Earth. All that to say: I, too will miss Nikki - a woman I never met, but was touched by just the same.
I Luv that this "sleepy" blog allows me 2 share parts of myself (& read the sharings of others:-) which are like treasures that will be stumbled upon & discovered as individuals travel along the blog-forest.
I have not been blogging very much in 2009 ... and that's fine:-). Lyf is cyclical and change is inevitable. There was a time that I had never heard of blogging ... but, I digress. I announced in January I am bringing SWAGGA BACK! One way that I've been bringing swagga back is by focusing on my health and weight. In December I began a weight-loss reality "show" on YouTube to hold myself accountable for ALL to see! It's WORKING! You can click this link to check out all of the episodes of CAP's MELTING Point on CAPtv.
I have posted the latest episode (23rd) below - where I discuss hair & fitness because in my quest 4 self love I've discovered Bikram Yoga which is HOTT (literally:-) & makes it impossible to keep one's hair straightened when I've had it "done". As of today, I've only attended 2 classes & already I feel an increase in SWAGGA & additional weight-loss - making it worth the hair styling "sacrifices". Enjoy!
HUGZ Alwayz 2 U 4 taking the time 2 stop by this CAPtivating blogspot!
Yesterday I joined several seasoned sistah friends to provide comfort & healing for one who had just cleaned her home of a relationship. As the elders say - when you do good for others you get good in return. One of the sistahs READ me & I know that I needed to hear it. Some of you may be surprised to learn that my swagga has been teetering on stagga. But, I am thankful for new beginnings and opportunities to reclaim my swagga!
When I moved to NYC in 2001 The Creator had this amazing Sistah take me in until I could find my own place. She gently shared that I was hiding - although she used different terminology. Three years ago I talked to this Brother Andrew Morrison at my church and he also gently shared his observation that I seemed to be hiding even though I am out in plain sight. In hindsight, Brother R. Fitzgerald said similar regarding why I'm a challenge for brothers - but I wasn't getting it. Well, yesterday the sistah who read me stated exactly how she observed me hiding out in the open - cuz I haven't been hearing the gentle nudgings of those before her. She stated: 1) that she could tell I had been hurt in past relationships and that it's time to let that go. 2) Despite my training that good sistahs "don't" - it's okay to get to know more than one man at a time (just play safe!;-). And 3) She gave me specific actions for coming out of hiding! Then today I stop by Clnmike's blog and he's posted a Deal Breaker list that speaks loud & clear!
Ok, Creator - I GET it! I need to step out on faith in a different way than I have been. All of my cocky rantings have not been reflected in my actions toward myself. So, my mantra (& my actions) for 2009: Time to Step INTO the light that is MINE (no more shadow boxing)!!
I love the words to this song that reiterate my actions for 2009:
